5 days

5 days almost 4 untill i find out my country!
(it is still not soon eneough)
im hoping for italy.
but who knows?
who?
i feel like crying. it seems like so far away.
and what if i dont get italy? after they told me i wasnt going to get any of my choices that hurt. i dont think i could go through that again. though now i am happy i really really want italy. i would be happy with anywhere and would get used to it, its just that i would be much less emotionaly strained and wanting to pull my hairs out if i got what i expected.
and i have to give a 5 min. speech on tuesday about exchange to a bunch of people i dont know.
i am starting to feel doubtful... and i lost my camera. :(
i wont post till after i know. wish me luck!
arrivederci till next week lunedi (monday)
jody-san